Its funny how we think we want something and when we get it, it really isn't what it was cracked up to be. I had been hung up on this guy for the longest time. I finally had the chance to go out with him and he turned out to be the asshole he always was and I was to blind to see. There was lots of hassle and I got really mad but now I'm just like it happened, being mad won't do me any good, it happened and there is nothing I can do but learn from it and I will. I don't have to do anything in revenge because I know I will go far in life and he won't. I have a lot to look forward to and he is a wreck. Plus I believe karma will take care of it for me.
The on Friday I had to say good bye to my co-workers at North Park. Its always interesting on how people effect our lives even if they aren't in them for that long, and how they can mean more than you realize. It was funny I told some of them about what happened and they were all like aww man you don't need him, and one of them was even like "We can go throw his stuff in the forest" "I'll drive you to go get your stuff back". I mean I liked working with them but I never realized I meant that much to them. It was really sad when I had to say good bye to Victor. He is an older Mexican man, he was my first friend there, he always helped me and we always joked around. I wish the best for him and I think he will be one of my co-workers I actually miss. When I had to say good bye to him I started to tear up, he was the first one there to help me out, he always was there to help me, he did what ever he could for me. I think he helped me out because I reminded him a lot of his daughters. He also knew as much as I acted mature I was still young and had a lot to learn.
All that has happened this week only has made me happier that I'm leaving. I have nothing here holding me back, I have nothing here really for me. Sure I'll miss some people but their will always be people I will miss everywhere. Right now I am here in Chicago and I miss my friends in Ludlow, and the people in Germany, my friends away at school and my sisters in NYC. While I'm in Germany I'll miss everyone here in the states but I think I will be much happier. Only time will tell.