There is so much to talk about since I have come back, so many thing where do I begin. Well I guess I will start with New Years, it was TOTALLY amazing. I had so much fun with many of my friends and it really felt like I was where I belonged. I know this may sound bad but it made me stop missing home and everyone back in the states. It was in those moments during the big New Year's celebration that I knew I wouldn't be able to ever fully leave Germany, I will always want to be here and live here even if I'm not. It also made me question again what am I going to do when I leave, or if I should even leave. I mean I love it here but I'm not cooking and cooking is my true passion. But there are two sides to life your personal life and your work life and right now I find I am torn. While I am in the USA I have the best professional life I could think of, but I'm not so happy about where my personal life stands. While in Germany I have the opposite problem, I have a really amazing personal life but my professional life isn't what I dreamed it would be and I'm not so happy with it. That's not to say I don't enjoy my job, I do but it is not fulfilling. So the question I have to answer is which is more important to me. But I feel like either way I go I am going to be disappointing people. If I choose to stay in Germany I am going to be disappointing all my friends and family back in the USA, yes they will be happy that I am happy but they will be really sadden by me not being back. But if I leave Germany I face the same problem everyone will be sad to see me go. I feel like the best answer to that is to stay in Germany because it is easier to go back to the USA from here then it is the other way. But then there is still the problem of finding the right balance of work and I don't know how to accomplish that.
This is going to be everything about my trip. From how I feel to what is going on.