I thought I had the 5 months left to prepare myself for this good bye, I had more things I wanted to do with him and more adventures to go on. And now those months are down to hours. I know I should foucs on the time we have and make the best of it but all I can foucs on is the leaving and wonder if we'll be able to keep in touch once he leaves. I mean it was hard last week, Lydia came and visited for a few days and it was great, she's the one who knows the most about my whole life and we connect on so many levels and it was hard to say good bye to her but I know we'll see each other in three weeks. But I don't know when I'll see Speedy again.
But I guess that's how life is sometimes, people come in to your life for a certain amount of time, I believe in the theory that they come for a reason, to teach you something, to help you with some, they have some purpose being in your life. After that its up to the two people to stay in contact. I know its not the end and I know we'll see each other in life again but it's just to much sooner then I expected. But that's life for you, as soon as you start getting used to everything and things are good and I'm happy something comes along to mess it up.