I always find it hard to say goodbye to people, I'm never really sure what to say. They tell me to have an awesome time and I'm not sure what to say, I tend to say Thank you, you too, but it never really seems to justify what I feel. Like the other day I was saying good bye to the man who has been most like a father to me and I couldn't find the words and then as I left it was really hard not to look back and maybe I should have but I didn't want to cry and I knew it wasn't going to be the last time I saw him before I left. I just don't know how to express myself to people and to tell them how much they mean to me. Its funny because I am always expressive and creative in what I do in life but when it comes to being off stage and real life things I tend to fail. I just hope when I do see certain people for the last time I can find the right words and get them out of my mouth. I know many of you may be like, well you'll see them again, but I can't hold such optimizem because I can not say that I will be back, I could go anywhere after I am done in Germany, I might even want to stay in Germany, all I know is it is to far away to tell what will happen and that life happens and any one of you could be taken from me at any moment so I have to say good bye. So I leave you all with this quote that is often in my mind these days.
"Goodbye may seem forever
Farewell is like the end
But in my heart is a memory
And there you'll always be"