So it is interesting how life works and to realize how close you get to people quickly. So last time I blogged about liking a guy and I had talked to my sister about it and she told me I should just kiss him and I thought maybe but this is Germany so I confined in one of the girls here and she said I should totally do it. I thought about it argued with myself about it and I decided I was going to at least tell him. I didn’t want it to be another missed chance. So I put myself out there and long story short I told him I liked him but then I regretted doing that. I mean he was my best friend and I thought I had just made things weird but luckily they weren’t he acted like nothing had happened and then the next day in the afternoon we talked. And he said he saw me more as a sister, which is fine such is life. But it was interesting because of course how life works with my permission the other girls found out too and then we were making jokes but they made sure I talked to him and didn’t chicken out.

What I found especially awesome was I took a walk an hour before lunch, I wanted to be by myself and not in my room and it was a nice day out, so I walked down to this meadow I know only like 10 minutes walking slowly through the woods, and sat and sang and thought about life. If I really did like him why I told him what I expected to happened what I wanted to happened, everything. And what was so awesome I think about after 40 minutes two of the girls came and checked on me, because all of them were worried about me and wanted to make sure I was ok. I was kind of surprised, I thought they would have found the way I was acting annoying because I was acting rather childish (but I am really awful when it comes to boys). But no they embraced it and today we laugh about it. I think it’s really awesome how close we all are becoming. We even now have game night planed every Monday although this week we are only going to be 2 people but it will still be fun.

So yeah that’s what happened this weekend and then this morning I got to go to Sven to this church to pick up a whole bunch of fresh vegetables and fruits. It was the fest of thanks or something like that. But the local farmers bring some of their crops to the church for a thank the lord kind of thing and then we got to take all the stuff to use here. I am going to try and make a potato leek soup, and maybe some roasted beets, or maybe I will find the roasted beet and apple endive salad recipe and make that.  But it was so awesome and when I saw it I started thinking oh I can do this with that and everything and I was like yup I still have the mind of a chef. I had been worried I was losing it since I wasn’t using it, but no still there. I forgot to write about it last time but last week I was missing working in the restaurant, you know the atmosphere, the cooking, the rush you get when you have 5 tables and one of them is a 6 top and they all want dessert. But then I just start making stuff here and it makes me feel better. It’s not the same but it’s good enough. 

I'm sure most of you have been wondering what I have been up to and I don't think I have posted what a normal day is for me so here it is. I get up we have a team meeting and then sometimes we feed the animals or refill the drink machine then at 9 we have the first program until 10:45 and then 11 we have the second program. The program depends on what the school class signed up for, most of them are circus but we also have nature and climbing. Then at 1:00 we eat and 1:30 we have the kiosk and then from 2-5 we do whatever they tell us to. So times its the ropes garden or office stuff. This week its putting the floors away from the circus tents. Its not really hard just annoying, you have to carry the boards to the pallet stack them up, drive them up to the barn and take them off and then do it again. But its ok it could be worse and it is cool doing the work of taking up and down the tents, I find it rewarding. Plus it is a good workout too. 

So life has been going on like normal, I don't have any real fun stories to share with the world, I mean sure I have fun with people but that's all normal. I get along well with the new people and make food when I feel like it, like I made a pumpkin pie and ravioli the other day when I had time. I might make something this weekend or sometime soon but I haven't decided much. 

I've been talking to my sister because I think I may like someone well ok think is a bad word of course I do, but I'm not really sure if its worth it. I mean I haven't decided if I want to stay here forever or not and of course if I do then it is fine to go out with someone but if I decide to leave then its not. I mean people tell me to live in the moment and don't worry about the future so much but I mean I think you need to think about both. There are times to appreciate the present and times to think about the future.  I mean there is also the fact that he might like me. (And for the record this is not the boy form 6 years ago we are different people and we are not going to be a thing, friends of course but not more.) Who knows I'm just gonna let things be. Get through the next month and then sort of have more free time as the winter comes. I am excited because as of Nov. 2nd we don't have any more schools so hopefully I will have more time to do the things I want, like study German, type up my story, cook, explore the forest and what not.